All I know is...

In my last blog entry I wrote that I was stuck. Since then I've become unstuck, choosing to move backwards to some of my old ways (booooooo) and forward with some of my new ones. (Yahhhh!)

This has been a daily struggle. Some days I win the battle, and I've even won the battle in some important areas. There are other days when inconsistency, and anything that looks like dessert kicks my ass.

The areas that are consistently better are; I've added loads of fresh vegetables, fresh fruit, whole grains and lean protein. Because of this the bad days aren't so bad anymore and I have a lot more energy.

Having more energy means I can get more done. I can stay active throughout the day and thus, be more useful to myself and to others. Holistic Health care means knowing how to feed the whole self. How I'm feeding my body deeply affects my quality of life.

I wish I could say that I don't care so much about how much weight I lose. I've lost about a pant size recently (well half a pant size because I've gained half of it back), and I wish I could say that I'm more concerned with developing good habits.

All I know is...I want it all :) A fitter healthier, stronger body and, the ability to consistently feed my body well. For now, dear readers, I'm still aiming for 90%.

Please feel free to share your story or make a comment.

Peace.
V

Is This It?

Is this the love I've been waiting for? The love I feel for myself that makes me walk past the Crispy Creams, the cake, the platter of cookies? They all seem to be calling me, beckoning me like a lover who knows they can have me with just a look or a smile. They feel my weakness, after all they are all a part of what make up my Achilles heal.

What they don't know is that today, I am in love with feeling good. I don't want to be high on sugar. I just want to be high on life. So, I take my size 18-20 on past all of them and head for the farmers market, the gym, and my yoga mat. I buy bananas, walnuts, rice milk, and brown rice and eat them for breakfast and it is the best rice pudding I've ever had. I steam some kale, sear off a chicken breast and add some miso to my beans for that salty deliciousness that only miso can offer.
At night I puree a banana, add some ice and some protein powder and throw back that smoothie like it was the best milk shake on earth and I feel good....

Safe and satisfied with a day that did not include any self destruction, ie...death by food.

I have a improved over the last few months...more later