Is This It?

Is this the love I've been waiting for? The love I feel for myself that makes me walk past the Crispy Creams, the cake, the platter of cookies? They all seem to be calling me, beckoning me like a lover who knows they can have me with just a look or a smile. They feel my weakness, after all they are all a part of what make up my Achilles heal.

What they don't know is that today, I am in love with feeling good. I don't want to be high on sugar. I just want to be high on life. So, I take my size 18-20 on past all of them and head for the farmers market, the gym, and my yoga mat. I buy bananas, walnuts, rice milk, and brown rice and eat them for breakfast and it is the best rice pudding I've ever had. I steam some kale, sear off a chicken breast and add some miso to my beans for that salty deliciousness that only miso can offer.
At night I puree a banana, add some ice and some protein powder and throw back that smoothie like it was the best milk shake on earth and I feel good....

Safe and satisfied with a day that did not include any self destruction, ie...death by food.

I have a improved over the last few months...more later

Yoga, Shopping, and Cooking Class Assistant

Hey, if you've landed here I'm hoping that you'll continue with me on this journey of discovery. My intention is to reconnect to my body through a variety of activities after many years of struggling with weight, and a health crisis. My goal is to inspire others and to have a place to chronicle the struggles and triumphs of becoming a physically fit, healthy person. Right now I am overweight and not very healthy.

I recently enrolled in the class of 2010 for the Institute For Integrative Nutrition. I'm becoming liscenced to become a Holistic Health Counselor and despite knowing bookloads of stuff about how to get and stay and eat healthy, I could use some sprucing up in the looks category.

It's Tuesday not my favorite day of the week but I'm glad to have another day to work on my health. I feel needed today, friends are calling, I moved my roommate's car because she is in Italy, and my boyfriend has a sprained foot so I had to make our breakfast. This is all good because I've been sick for 5 days, two of which were spent sleeping and watching a marathon of America's Next Top Model. I'm ready to move on from this space and reconnect to my body and to moving around but need to take it slow.

For today, reconnecting to my body means lots of water and vitamin C, another stab at the cable yoga class that I can't make it through. I can only do 15 minutes of this advanced class so far. I'm also going to stay active by going to the grocery store to buy Thanksgiving dinner and later I have the priviledge of working with Carla Hall from Top Chef in one of her cooking demos. I'll be there to learn how to give my own demos.

Wish me luck, I'm already tired and the day has just begun.