I'm going to tell the truth here because that's what this is all about- isn't it? I've had some successes since starting on this journey. I've lost a pant size and I've not needed to sit in front of the TV with a bag of anything for some time. My daily diet has been defined and there is enough food and variety for me to not feel deprived but.....I'm Stuck.
I realize that I am still dealing with the emotions, denial, self sabotage, and rationalizations that keep me turning like a hampster on a wheel. A few steps forward and a couple of steps back. Aargh...you can only imagine how this is slowing down my progress. I do not intend to start on a "new diet" because I can't stick to the one that I have. All I have to do is eat 3 measured meals and get some exercise.
There is something to be said for inconsistency :) It is at the very crux of failure.
So dear blog friends my task is to become more consistent. Not perfect. Let's shoot for 90% this week. I know that you're rooting for me.
Thanks.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Is This It?
Is this the love I've been waiting for? The love I feel for myself that makes me walk past the Crispy Creams, the cake, the platter of cookies? They all seem to be calling me, beckoning me like a lover who knows they can have me with just a look or a smile. They feel my weakness, after all they are all a part of what make up my Achilles heal.
What they don't know is that today, I am in love with feeling good. I don't want to be high on sugar. I just want to be high on life. So, I take my size 18-20 on past all of them and head for the farmers market, the gym, and my yoga mat. I buy bananas, walnuts, rice milk, and brown rice and eat them for breakfast and it is the best rice pudding I've ever had. I steam some kale, sear off a chicken breast and add some miso to my beans for that salty deliciousness that only miso can offer.
At night I puree a banana, add some ice and some protein powder and throw back that smoothie like it was the best milk shake on earth and I feel good....
Safe and satisfied with a day that did not include any self destruction, ie...death by food.
I have a improved over the last few months...more later
What they don't know is that today, I am in love with feeling good. I don't want to be high on sugar. I just want to be high on life. So, I take my size 18-20 on past all of them and head for the farmers market, the gym, and my yoga mat. I buy bananas, walnuts, rice milk, and brown rice and eat them for breakfast and it is the best rice pudding I've ever had. I steam some kale, sear off a chicken breast and add some miso to my beans for that salty deliciousness that only miso can offer.
At night I puree a banana, add some ice and some protein powder and throw back that smoothie like it was the best milk shake on earth and I feel good....
Safe and satisfied with a day that did not include any self destruction, ie...death by food.
I have a improved over the last few months...more later
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